I saw a recent interview with Kanye in which he was justifying his narcissism by proposing that he is two people, Kanye WestÂ the productÂ and Kanye WestÂ the person.
I have the right to talk in third person because Iâ€™m me as a person, but also Iâ€™m a walking brand.â€
Interesting. Everyone seeâ€™s Kanye West as arrogant and self-righteous, I see him as someone coping with some very important issues we all have to deal with. I think Mr. West is developing into a master of consumerism, a master or a victim – itâ€™s a very thin line. Either way, the one song from 808â€™s & Heartbreak that Iâ€™ve actually willingly listened to isÂ Welcome to Heartbreak,Â a very authentic song which truly captures the bittersweet aspects of his recent success.
Dad cracked a joke, all the kids laughed, But I couldnâ€™t here him all the way in first-class. Chased the good-life, all my life long, Look back on my life, all my life gone, Where did I go wrong?â€œ
This song falls in the same realm of Eminemâ€™sÂ Say Goodbye to Hollywood, Lily Allenâ€™sÂ The Fear, Hector Lavoeâ€™sÂ La Fama,Â Jay-Zâ€™sÂ Success,Â The BeatlesÂ Drive My CarÂ and countless others.
I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore. I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore.”
The consistent theme in all of these songs is theÂ juxtapositionÂ between success in the public eye and the abandonment of self through extreme levels of sacrifice.
I donâ€™t wanna quit, but shit, I feel like this is it For me to have this much appeal like this is sick This is not a game, this fame, in real life this is sick Publicity stunt my ass, consume my fuckinâ€™ dickâ€¦ I love my fans but no one ever puts a grasp on the fact iâ€™ve sacrificed everything I have I never dreamt iâ€™d get to the level that iâ€™m at, this is whack This is more than I ever could of asked Everywhere I go, a hat, a sweater hood, or mask What about math, how come I wasnâ€™t ever good at that Itâ€™s like the boy in the bubble, who never could adapt, iâ€™m trapped If I could go back, I never woulda rapped I sold my soul to the devil, iâ€™ll never get it back I just wanna leave this game with level head intact Imagine goinâ€™ from beinâ€™ a no one to seeinâ€™, everything blow up and all you did was just growÂ up emceeing Itâ€™s fuckinâ€™ crazy Cause all I wanted was to give Hailie the life I never had But instead I forced us to live alienated, so iâ€™m sayinâ€™â€¦â€Eminem – Say Goodbye To Hollywood
I never went to my econ class in college so I donâ€™t rememberÂ muchÂ but the one thingÂ I did pick upÂ was thatÂ the real cost of something is what you have to give up to get it. A concept Iâ€™ve really have to come to grips with lately, because even when you win big in this world your still losing something. That said, ambition is a complicated subject, one needs to be fully aware of who one is and what one wants before devoting to a particular end. The way to do that is by being brutally honest with yourself, a task not many are willing to undertake. In the words of Hector Lavoe:
Porque yo soy La Fama, soy aquel que la gente reclama pero nadie puede comprederâ€¦â€
Anyways, this is way too complicated for my hungover state right now. Just what I was feeling at the time, enjoy.
I use to give a fuck, now I give a fuck less. What do I think of suc-cess? It sucks, too much stress. â€œ