Last night I had a dream, thoughts was racin through my head
Felt so real to me,Â This is what was said…”Â – Jay-Z (The Blueprint 2, A Dream)
The concept of control is a funny thing mainly because we never really have it. Coincidentally, I’m a strong fond believer in creating your own destiny in all aspects of life. Be it love, your career, you name it, taking creativity into your own hands in turn implies an aspect of control. I also believe that when you get to a certain point of wisdom and understand the limitless nature of things, you can truly get anything you want. However, last night I had the most realistic and intense dream about a feeling I could have sworn was long gone, or should I say under control…
Wreckin’ ball hit yah like a freight train coming, I’m on a warpath gonna hit the ground running.”Â – Rat fink
That’s my mentality right now and let’s just say that the emotions involved with such a mind state are far from chick flick material. Though it’s 2010 and genders are blurring more then ever I’m still one of those boys that like’s boys stuff. I enjoy disturbingly violent movies, ninjas, James Bond, I don’t like to fight but if it were to happen I would probably have fun doing so and I like girls, girls, girls, the way MÃ¶tley CrÃ¼e would sing it.
I knew a time was gone and it took me like ages
Just to understand that I was afraid to be a simple guy.” – Phoenix (Too Young)
Still my dream last night was about the one PYT who sometimes makes me think otherwise and it was refreshing to feel something that I had no control over. So as much as my warpath requires planning, emotional control and fearless pursuit of the things I want, it’s nice to know the feeling is out there somewhere. That said, as the dream’s effect still lingers, here’s Breakbot’s Remix of Pnau’sÂ Baby, the perfect song to describe this paradox as well as that endless, helpless love you can share with someone.
Baby I don’t know, just why I love you so. Maybe it’s just the way, that god made me this day.”