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VOKES – Slow Down

I was vibing to the beginning of this track, enjoying the tinny, transistor radio-style throwback sound when the chorus unexpectedly burst through like the Kool-Aid guy crashing through some dry-wall. The rush of lush sounds felt like a tropical wave crashing up against my body. Getting salt water all up in my mouth, eyes and ears, but it’s all good cause it’s part of the experience. It felt like that first hit of a joint after not smoking any weed for a few days. That “ahhhh yes, THIS feeling!” feeling.

It reminded me of that first bite of super high quality sushi, or a sip of legit wine. A bite of a maple bar fresh out of the oven. Puttin’ it in after a couple of dry months. It’s all about that rush that overwhelms your senses in every way. We don’t want little teasers and sampler platters, we want to be overcome full force with THAT feeling. That’s really what everyone is looking for – from a little kid on a swing, to a point guard on the high school bball team, to a drug addict living in a stair well – they just want that rush of feeling that brings them to another new place, a new height, a new moment that they can then define other moments against.

Really it’s why we do anything – for the feeling, the sensation that comes along with it. The feeling of accomplishment after a job well done. The feeling of satisfaction after great sex. The feeling of satiation after an awesome meal or an indulgent dessert. The fact that we’re all constantly searching for a feeling is certainly part of a much bigger story, but we’ll save that for another time. For now I’m just enjoying the rush that “Slow Down” provides for me every time I listen to it. Another beauty from VOKES, my new drug dealer for the week.



Fonkynson – Aquarelle

Some things in life require having a bad memory. Many of us, myself included, have a tendency to dive into our own narratives when something bad happens. “I always do this,’ ‘people always act like that.” But the truth is, some things don’t deserve the mental energy. Nothing has meaning beyond the perspective you use to see it…

I’ve missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I’ve lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I’ve been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I’ve failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed. – Michael Jordan

That’s my favorite Jordan quote and it runs much deeper than those words. In every game Jordan played, he missed shot after shot. Of course, all we remember is the highlights but Jordan lived with constant failure. Now think about your reaction to failure on a daily basis. Someone does something to tick you off and you live in the illusion of being mad for the rest of the day. That’s the equivalent of Jordan missing a shot or getting fouled and then telling himself he sucks and sitting on the bench for the rest of the game.

People are going to hit you with flagrant fouls all the time. Count on it. The only way to make the most out of your life is to have horrible short-term memory. You miss a shot, forget about it, come right back and take another one. Someone does something to piss you off, brush it off and keep being dope. Dwelling is for the birds.

Fonkyson’s Aquarelle embodies that concept of always going forward. The beat drives, the synths take you on an adventure. From the start it’s easy to tell this whole production is high caliber. This is no rookie. Dope instrumental tracks like this were a dime a dozen in the Fred Falke days but rare these days. They’re among my favorite to vibe to because they let you simultaneously enjoy it for what it is without overpowering your mind. That allows you to sit there and be a part of the song, adding whatever meaning or energy you need from it.

As I sit here exploring the words of one of the greatest performers in history, trying to cultivate a new relationship with failure. I’m picturing myself going through life like the two three. A nasty interaction, whatever. Someone makes you feel bad, already forgot it. If you want to win you’re going to miss a lot. Everyone is going to have an opinion about you. People aren’t going to like you, especially if you’re no phased by their attempts to put you down. Just cultivate that short-term memory and keep shooting, enjoy.

Lost Boy Crow – Thursday

While lost deep in the zone of this throwback indie-soul slow burner, I realized something about it’s title “Thursday” – it’s without a doubt the best day of the week. Friday is a sell-out, way too basic. Saturday is too crowded, filled with amateurs. Sunday is just a countdown to Monday. Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday are basically a wash for all intents and purposes. But Thursday…Thursday is the piece that holds the whole damn thing together. You know why? Because Thursday is filled with potential and invites promise. It’s a window to “freedom” – everything is laid out in front of you on Thursday. People are happier because they’ve made it to the other side of the hump. Plans start to materialize. A full slate of games is on Sunday and you can start talking shit. It’s having all of these things in front of you that’s exciting. It’s the gift of having something to look forward to.

See, that’s the whole key to life – having something to look forward to. Think about it. Boredom stems from not having anything to look forward to. Depressions stems from not having anything to look forward to. There’s no reason to feel anxious when you have something to look forward to. When you’re lazy and apathetic it’s because you don’t have anything pulling you out of bed, begging you to contribute to humanity that day. You gotta have that thing on your mind that you’re excited to get closer to, whether it’s a party on Friday night or a brunch with buddies on Sunday. Or a vacation. Or that business venture you’re working to close out. Or that movie you’ve been writing. Or…or… or…

You see where we’re headed here? It’s not only about the small things like looking forward to dinner and a movie on Saturday night. It’s about the big picture. Do you have something to look forward to in general? Is there some end goal you’re working towards? Cause if there was, you’d be hopping out of bed, ready to crush the day, looking forward to doing all of the little things keep you moving towards your goal. That’s when you’re in the flow, and it’s impossible to be bored, helpless, or hopeless. Every single moment of the day feels like Thursday. Lost Boy Crow knows what I’m talking about now we’ve got a theme song for the best day of the week.

EMPT Radio: Beats Lounge

Slowly growing EMPT Radio list but one of my favorites with some brand new exclusives. Vibes.

2Pac – Dear Mama (Boehm Remix)


Becoming a Mother has shown me that everyday should be for the Mama’s.  Bringing a child into the world isn’t easy but it’s also the most beautiful and rewarding gift that truly only a mother can understand.  I have spent the past 5 months raising my little girl on my own.  I have discovered a hundred different new emotions that I had no idea existed.  I give more credit to my own mother who played the roll of Mom and Dad while I was growing up, always laughing, always there for me, and I honestly don’t know how I could ever thank her enough for the most amazing, beautiful, alive and loving woman that she is.  I hope one day my daughter looks up to me the way I look up to my Mother.

To keep me happy there’s no limit to the things you did
And all my childhood memories
Are full of all the sweet things you did for me
And even though I act craaazy
I gotta thank the Lord that you made me
There are no words that can express how I feel
You never kept a secret, always stayed real
And I appreciate, how you raised me
And all the extra love that you gave me.” -2Pac

Shout out to all the Mama’s out there, for all you do and all that you are.  It is a true gift and a true honor to finally be a part of this day with you all!

Much love and much respect…