Elohim – Xanax

This song is literally bursting at its seams with a bunch of tightly packed little truths fighting to be heard. I mean really, no matter how at peace we are with our lives in general, don’t we all deal with countless little anxiety-producing moments all day, every day? I’m one of the happiest people I know, and I’ll be damned if I don’t have to work through 20 seconds of dread every time I have to do something relatively benign, like talk on the phone or choose what to eat for dinner. The key is to make sure the more complicated things only bring the same short burst of dread, at worst. It’s when those bursts of dread last days, weeks or even months that we find ourselves in need of help.

What’s so beautiful about this song is Elohim’s honesty. It’s like she’s testing the waters with her questions…asking for friends…for reassurance…while at the same time boasting confidently that she deals with crippling anxiety every day of her, day of her, day of her life. Revealing painful weakness in one thought and completely owning it in the next is as real as it gets and it’s super appealing. I’m pretty sure that’s what being human is all about.

Hearing Elohim deal with her anxiety this way is purely inspirational. It’s common practice to bury these feelings under layers of crap (I recently read that only 30-40% of people with chronic depression seek help), but she comes right out wearing them up and down her sleeve. Like Kramer’s lawyer Jackie Chiles infamously proclaimed about public bra-wearer Sue Ellen Mischke, “She’s flouting society’s conventions!!” And in this case, that’s a wonderful thing. Flout away Elohim, flout away.

And the trap hats and “ho’s” in the chorus don’t hurt either.


BECOME X Elohim – She Talks Too Much

I’m trying to reach uncharted territory as a modern-day Christopher Columbus of spirituality so I spend a lot of time exploring the abstract – shit like meditation, talking to plants, the nature of time etc. So far my experiments have yielded marvelous results but one interesting thing about espcaping every day communication is going back and talking to people. Language is such an abstraction in regard to communication. Follow me as I relate it to code – it’s as if our DNA is our machine code, culture/religion/etc are our high level programming languages and what we actually say is the interface. That’s a very digital way of saying that the “self,” is rarely speaking, we’re to an extent just bio computers executing our programming…

I speak only one language, and it is not my own.” — Jacques Derrida

Some people fight this, most don’t. So these days when people talk to me I listen to their words, but most of my attention is focused on tuning into tonal frequencies and energy that cuts through the endless layers of abstraction and reveals what they’re really trying to say or accomplish. I apply the same practice to myself in meditation because words never quite capture the essence of my own thoughts and feelings.

Which brings me to the subject of todays post, BECOME’s remix of Elohim’s She Talks To Much. The song is self-explanatory and captures that swervy moment when you want to around people but simply get beyond the basic bitchness of talking. Don’t get me wrong, I love language and when two people break down the programming and speak at that higher level (low-level for anyone who understood the above) it’s a beautiful thing, but that’s easier said then done. Sometimes, especially when there’s some sort of mind altering substance you just want to sit back chill and move like lions do. No words, it’s when dancing says it all, when a look does all the talking, when a touch not words is game. Just vibe and communication at the most basic and fundamental level, enjoy.