Snakehips & MØ – Don’t Leave (Gryffin Remix)

I remember it clear as day…I was about to move at the age of 16 and was *beyond* in love with a girl. I wanted to say fuck the distance and stay together, but she was always the independent one and decided that it was best if we went our separate ways. I cried a ton and then built up some serious emotional walls because it felt like there was no way anyone could love her the way I did…from the crush in our elementary days to standing by her side as a best friend through years of bullshit to the overwhelming love I felt then.

Would my life be different now if she didn’t make that decision? Yeah, probably… But man, *years* have gone by and that shit still hurts when I think back on it. Hell, she added me on Facebook to see how I was doing a few months ago and seeing her with someone else still stung like walking into a giant wasp hive. I don’t blame her in the slightest for wanting to split up, I mean it was high school and all, but still…it’s crazy that so many years later, I still haven’t come within miles of loving someone the way I loved that girl.

As an old friend I really am happy to see her doing so well these days…but I’d be lying if I didn’t admit that part of me still wonders if anyone will ever love her better.

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Misterwives – Reflections (Gryffin Remix)

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A little over two weeks ago I met this beautiful person while hanging with some close friends at The Spare Room, one of my favorite spots in Hollywood. In the sea of people I felt compelled to not be shy as I gravitated to this particular energy and suddenly found myself talking about my intense wheat, dairy, sugar, processed food and alcohol free lifestyle, I went on about my new-found obsession with reductionism, music and all the other things you’re not supposed to talk about when you meet a pretty girl…

I got no game it’s just some bitches understand my story.” – NaS

Long story short, the vibe to which I gravitated was real and I met another soul on a spiritual journey that seemed to parallel my own in many ways. For weeks we hung out, went on day trips, talked about the true nature of things, shared music, knowledge and enjoyed the new friendship. The bittersweet part about it is that when we met she was already in transition about to move to NYC so however wonderful our time was, the days were numbered from the start. Yesterday she went to see her family and this Thursday she moves to the Big Apple. Traditionally these things would make a person sad but you realize that when you meet kindred spirits there’s no such thing. Instead of saying goodbye in sadness or anger it was a beautiful wishing for the best and see you when I see you. We’ll remain good friends and at the very least I’ll have a spiritual sister for life.

Reflections. This song has been around for a while but Gryffin has completely reinvented it and bought it to the Space Age. I love it’s meaning because it’s about things that could be something but remain the same due to repetition of patterns, uncertainty and the overall in-between. The middle is the place that does a lot and a little, it’s the easiest place to be in and the hardest to get out of. It’s where you let things slide and never forgive actions get hall passes only to create more problems in the end…

My recent experience was a fearless departure from the in-between; an existence free of doubt where two people truly brought out the best versions of each other. Those were two weeks of hope for me. To meet someone with such a beautiful disposition, full of light and showing limitless capacity for growth makes you feel good about the idea of a significant other. In this world of insecurity, vindictiveness and fear you can easily forget what that relationship is really about. Saying goodbye was tough but how much more wonderful it is to reflect on the passing of something beautiful than something miserable. Note to self, life should always be this way, enjoy.